How My Baby Boy Drew Me Closer To God
In The Beginning...
I have been a Christian for 16years. Beginning of my years, I was on fire and served in various ministries. Soon after a few years, I became busy and became a Sunday Christian.
I still attend services regularly. I am not religious. I definitely do share a relationship with God and my Faith has always been of great importance to me. Except that I do not pray regularly nor read the Bible regularly to seek God. Jesus was just someone at the back of my mind.
The Unpredictable Predicament...
When I knew I conceived, I was so afraid of bearing a unhealthy child. I had so much fears and worries. At the same time, I doubted if I actually could be a great mom. Or even a responsible one. The fears of what the future might hold grips my heart time to time.
I thought hard and long for 9months and even till now, am still taking a step at a time to be a better person I was yesterday, to be a better mom for my little boy today.
Yet, amongst all these fears and unknown, I reminded myself the faithfulness of God.
I confessed everyday for my baby. The day ever since he was just a dot in my womb. And my husband would prayed every night for our baby and I.
I confessed all my hopes and dreams of what I want my son to be. And yes, I did confessed for a boy. I did ask for a head full of hair. I ask for a child of strength. And I prayed that he be a easy kid to care for.
I prayed more. I confessed more. Because I knew I must overcome my fears. Else, I will have to carry a baby to term with fear. And with all the crazy pregnancy hormones? I dont think thats the way out for me. So, I recognised that building up my faith once again was the way forward for me.
I remembered those days when I think to myself; what if something bad happens to my baby? An accident? A disease? A virus? All the negative, unforeseen and unexpected events... what if? What ifs..
I knew. I knew that I must build my holy faith in God. I knew that I need to start studying the Bible again and have revelations.
I could not imagine that if in any circumstances; I do not have enough faith inside of me to pray for my child if he met with something bad. Or the inability to guide my son in his faith because I am, but an empty shell.
